It's been awhile since I've posted. It was an intentional little break. I feel like I was kind of on autopilot, and so in all honesty, I took a breather from Facebook and email and my blog because I needed some time to sort some thoughts and just "be". Plus, I have always thought March was a slow month; a transition from sleeping to waking, if you want to go metaphorical. It's also personally my least favorite month of the year. Nature can't decide what to do, and there is not a lot of pretty snow or pretty green and it's still biting and gray with weak sun. I have never found much good in it. It's also the hardest month at school in terms of stress and the generally loooong span of time between breaks. So in this slow month, not too much has happened. I've been working, Stefan's been job hunting, the kids have been, well, kids.
Scarlet has been generally healthy until just this last week, which has been her longest "well" period of time since September. It was wonderful. Right now we are experiencing two steps back, if you will, and her lungs are back to their same old wheezy, closed-up stunts. Yesterday at the doctor, she was given an injection of steroids, an additional 6 days of oral steroids on top of the 4 that she had already completed, an anitbiotic, an inhaled steroid, and breathing treatments every 4-6 hours. This is all for the next 5-7 days, so you can imagine that our stress level has just increased, and since we can't really go outside, we are all a little stir crazy. Scarlet is just in a NASTY, MOODY way, which can't be any fun for her. Poor baby girl.
The only thing I do like about March is St. Patrick's Day, but this year I had to spend it at three hours and forty-five minutes of parent-teacher conferences, and that was a bummer. I had to do some adjusting, and the pictures were actually taken the night before, right after bathtime, but I love the way the kids looked in all their green this year. Finding something for Scarlet was actually harder than I thought it would be, but I persevered! She looked great, don't you think? Of course, the picture session ended on a rough note. As they get older, they can complain more!
This would have been the best picture, but Spencer decided to make this weird alien face. Oh well.
Life is a little slow right now, and truthfully, some days I wonder when things will be different. When will the economy be different? When will a cold be just a cold? Will Stefan find a job that he wants and that's good for our family? I could go on and on and on. Then I begin to worry about things way beyond my realm of understanding or control. I don't want my blog to sound like so many others out there that just relate the events of my family's moment by moment living, although I am sure at times that it does, nor do I want it to be some plastic-y, motivational speaker happy talk all the time. I was reminded yesterday of the promises below, and I wanted to share them here. I have held on to these words this week. I hope you remember that God is a God of grace and peace, a faithful avenger for His people.
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-
10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."